Bloody hell!!!

Apologies!

A bit of a late post tonight but I wanted to get everything down and off my chest after today’s events.

I had (yet another) scan today because after my last scan which I posted about here they wanted to monitor me. This was due to being ever so slightly below the excessive amniotic fluid line.

So off we went to the scan appointment and I was really positive. No nerves at all.

Measurements were taken and then given to my midwife who informed me that Baby Stock’s abdominal measurements are now off the scale (I’m currently 38+3 weeks) and my amniotic fluid levels have risen dramatically.

Now, obviously I knew what that meant given that I had been consulting Dr Google quite a lot in the past two weeks!

I have now been booked in for an emergency diabetes appointment at the hospital…which takes place tomorrow!

It is a bit strange if I do have it because I have not been presenting with any of the usual diabetic symptoms.

Luckily I will not have to do the blood glucose test – I honestly do not think at the moment that I could manage not eating for so long, but I will have to do finger prick tests in order to get the results. It has not been confirmed to me officially yet but I know that if it comes back positive then they will induce me…given how far I am along this will almost certainly be next week.

To say I am gutted is an understatement.

I got quite teary with the midwife.

I just feel like my body is letting me down – I have a really good diet; I watch what I eat to an extent but have let biscuits wander into my mouth recently…it is Christmas after all! Combine that with the PGP issues and it does make me feel like a bit of a failure, especially when people keep asking me if this will be my last pregnancy given what I go through each time!

Anyhow…the only issue I probably have is that I do not eat regularly enough which could cause blood sugar spikes, but I have no idea whether this would impact on having a large baby or not.

The thing that really REALLY scared me is their predictions on how big the baby is now. Apparently it is 8lb 5oz with a large body and they said that if it keeps growing at the rate that it is growing then I might have difficulty birthing the shoulders! Jeez!!!

I am seriously going to be massacred down there!

I have “joked” to Kris that he is going to have to save up for my plastic surgery bill…that is looking more and more likely!

I just really did not want medical intervention with this labour. My labour with Cecily was bloody awful after the hospital intervened and it has mentally scarred me – I just want a nice experience and I feel like this is being taken away from me little by little.

However, I am totally jumping the gun here.

I tend to look on the pessimistic side of things and I know that this is what I am doing here but I do have to mentally prepare myself for the worst case scenario tomorrow.

Shall just have to wait and see…again!

You never know…I might miraculously go into labour tonight and then we won’t have to worry about these other things!!!

x

PS. Sorry about the flitting nature of the above just then!!!